Tomorrow Kyle and I will fly to California to say goodbye to a family member. This day has come too quickly and too sudden. It's our first time supporting each other in this kind of event. I didn't know uncle Jim very well, but I know that he went to my wedding. He supported Kyle and I and he really enjoyed the photo booth at the wedding. I know he was a Raider fan and loved football. It hard to know how to feel when flying to a funeral. It feels like a weight on my shoulders as I battle anxiety over flying and seeing my family. Being together with my family during such a difficult time. I've never been good at hugging or being in crowds, but I know tomorrow none of that will matter. I know tomorrow its about Uncle Jim. Tomorrow I get to learn about him. Learn about how he was as a person. Learn about how he lived and learn about what he loved. I may not have known him very well but by the end of the week I will know him and remember him.
Today at school the students were all loud and excitable. I am finishing up my sub plans, and getting together last minute notes for my staff. I sit here in silence. Just listening. Trying to quiet the thoughts in my head. Trying to learn how to be still and know the Lord is Lord. Has anyone ever tried it? Here I am trying it, yet I am typing my blog.
Silence.
1, 2, 3...
Silence.
In this world of instant can anyone really sit in silence? Does it need to be on top of a mountain or an open field. Can we put down our phones while at the same time putting down our thoughts? How do we do this? Through practice and discipline. Like everything in life.
Silence.
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