Tomorrow Kyle and I will fly to California to say goodbye to a family member. This day has come too quickly and too sudden. It's our first time supporting each other in this kind of event. I didn't know uncle Jim very well, but I know that he went to my wedding. He supported Kyle and I and he really enjoyed the photo booth at the wedding. I know he was a Raider fan and loved football. It hard to know how to feel when flying to a funeral. It feels like a weight on my shoulders as I battle anxiety over flying and seeing my family. Being together with my family during such a difficult time. I've never been good at hugging or being in crowds, but I know tomorrow none of that will matter. I know tomorrow its about Uncle Jim. Tomorrow I get to learn about him. Learn about how he was as a person. Learn about how he lived and learn about what he loved. I may not have known him very well but by the end of the week I will know him and remember him.
Today at school the students were all loud and excitable. I am finishing up my sub plans, and getting together last minute notes for my staff. I sit here in silence. Just listening. Trying to quiet the thoughts in my head. Trying to learn how to be still and know the Lord is Lord. Has anyone ever tried it? Here I am trying it, yet I am typing my blog.
Silence.
1, 2, 3...
Silence.
In this world of instant can anyone really sit in silence? Does it need to be on top of a mountain or an open field. Can we put down our phones while at the same time putting down our thoughts? How do we do this? Through practice and discipline. Like everything in life.
Silence.
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
Monday, January 26, 2015
Seeing blessings in everyday life
This last week was a tough week. Kyle and I experience shock, pain, and grief. Kyle experienced a kind of reality and panic about life and family. I experienced learning to be patient in a different way. But in the midst of all of this the Lord made his presence known. In all the little things.
Celebrating a birthday and being able to still bring joy to someone else. Watching a family come together to surprise their mother while at school is still so wonderful.
Being able to watch my husband study for a test and be mesmerized by the fact that he is studying 7 days before he has the test! Skyping with my dog. Making Chili. Delivering chili. Teaching others about a frito boat. Seriously how is it that no one here knows what a frito boat is! Having a student spontaneously request something by first getting my attention and using a full sentence! Driving over to my sister house Friday and surprising my nephew with a last minute sleep over at my house. Being able to text a co-woker to return a red box movie for me. Watching my nephew wiggle in excitement. Waking up to the strange noises of my nephew. Going to the omsi and watching my nephew explore with Kyle. Teaching my nephew about rescuing animals. Cooking for my sister. Taking a bath in essential oils. Making a new friend at work. Having the desire to eat salad. Going to church on Sunday. Going over to my sisters house and doing insanity. Walking to the park. Getting a kiss form my nephew. Driving home and stopping by the mall. Getting a text from a friend wanting to bless kyle and I with airline points. Being humbled and learning how to receive. Being on the receiving end of getting help from a friend in community group. Finally realizing what community group is. Getting closer with a friend. Kyle getting 104% on his test. Learning how to fix the DVR. Finding a new show to obsess about. Having essential oils.
This whole week and weekend has been stressful but its the little things that make me slow down. Its the little things that make me see Christ and all the work he is doing. Christ is glorified through his own works. Not mine. I am the risotto and he is the chef. Adding little bits of joy and wonder into my life.
There are blessings everyday.
Celebrating a birthday and being able to still bring joy to someone else. Watching a family come together to surprise their mother while at school is still so wonderful.
Being able to watch my husband study for a test and be mesmerized by the fact that he is studying 7 days before he has the test! Skyping with my dog. Making Chili. Delivering chili. Teaching others about a frito boat. Seriously how is it that no one here knows what a frito boat is! Having a student spontaneously request something by first getting my attention and using a full sentence! Driving over to my sister house Friday and surprising my nephew with a last minute sleep over at my house. Being able to text a co-woker to return a red box movie for me. Watching my nephew wiggle in excitement. Waking up to the strange noises of my nephew. Going to the omsi and watching my nephew explore with Kyle. Teaching my nephew about rescuing animals. Cooking for my sister. Taking a bath in essential oils. Making a new friend at work. Having the desire to eat salad. Going to church on Sunday. Going over to my sisters house and doing insanity. Walking to the park. Getting a kiss form my nephew. Driving home and stopping by the mall. Getting a text from a friend wanting to bless kyle and I with airline points. Being humbled and learning how to receive. Being on the receiving end of getting help from a friend in community group. Finally realizing what community group is. Getting closer with a friend. Kyle getting 104% on his test. Learning how to fix the DVR. Finding a new show to obsess about. Having essential oils.
This whole week and weekend has been stressful but its the little things that make me slow down. Its the little things that make me see Christ and all the work he is doing. Christ is glorified through his own works. Not mine. I am the risotto and he is the chef. Adding little bits of joy and wonder into my life.
There are blessings everyday.
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