Today is another grading day. Some days I love grading days. Its a much needed time to catch up on the mounds of paper work on my desk. Some days I miss my kids. To get on to the grade book I need to log into my attendance platform and when I get there, I see pictures of my students. Today I just took a second and stared at them. Looking at each of them and how far they have all come. Their quirks and unique personalities come forward and their progress and the mountains they have overcome. I can't help but smile and miss them. I love these kids. They are everything to me and I so desperately just want them to do well in the 3 years I have them. While doing some of my grades I have pandora playing in the back ground and the song "forever" comes on and I can't help but feel my heart sore.
"Forever, He is glorified
Forever, He is lifted high
Forever, He is risen
He is alive
He is alive!"
I am so blessed to be doing something I love everyday and I can't help but praise God everyday. In all my crazy work days I tend to forget just how lucky I am. I tend to forget to pray. I tend to forget to read my bible. I tend to forget that I am not where I am by chance. I am lucky. Everything that has been place before me is from the Father. I know that every where I go God places me where I am needed and he has never steered me wrong. It is such a joy and relief to me that when things get hard I can look back and see all His goodness. Its such a joy and relief to know that even when things are good that I can still praise him. That the praise should be never ending. We are lucky to have his salvation. We are lucky to just be in his presence. These days when I don't have my students with me I can't help but just feel so lucky. But it isn't luck is it. That is the mind blowing thing! I didn't get lucky and God just choose me. He chooses every one of us and invites us into his family, into his majesty, into his kingdom. Chases after every one of us to be part of his kingdom because he WANTS to bless us, guide us, sit with us, cry with us, laugh with us, love with us and its amazing. As I write this the sun is coming out from the gray skies and rain. And I am swelling with joy and love. I get to live in a beautiful place where I get to teach some wonderful kids, I get to work with some amazing staff, and I have everything I need and want. It just hit me that I am turning 30 this year. I've been living for 30 years, my twin has been living on this planet for 30 years plus 1 extra minute. My twin. I'm lucky that God blessed me with a life long best friend who just gets me... I mean she better... its things like that where I can't help but wonder at the awe of our Lord and Savior. I'm not the warmest of people (some of my closest friends can attest to that) but that doesn't mean I don't know how lucky I am. We are all lucky, we are all saved and that is being forever lucky.
